currently listening to..

I Caught Myself (Twilight Soundtrack Version) - Hayley Williams This sucks. Right now, my mood is crushed. Yea, I'm feeling a bit emo. Gay. But Ive realized that now that there is no hope between me and him. The one that im still trying to completely get over. I know I shouldnt be feeling this way at all because I know that this is not worth the trouble at all, but this is how I feel. I cant completely stop myself on feeling this way. There was a good past between us, but also bitter. And for him to completely erase me away from his life, well I guess I'm not even worth it. And what happened to being "GOOD FRIENDS"? What Happened? Really I dont know. I feel like Im a bad person for him to be seeing me this way. Still with my old ways and such. I cant help it. Im lost. Im trying to find myself, without him. How stupid is that? That when we were a couple before that he would be my everything as I was to him. And now Im nothing. I need to be strong, because deep down inside I know I can fight this. I HAVE TO FIGHT THIS. Me feeling this way is not good for my health. Stressing, Wondering, and Hoping. Its all just a waste of my time. Im forgotten.